So, yeah, I'm great at keeping up with things.

Anyway, I'm finding this important to note. I am into Johnny Cash. I never realised... Right now, I'm downloading a few songs from some of his later albums - I never knew that he'd kind of moved away from the pure country-type stuff and into this folk-esque area. Methinks this calls for the purchase of some of these albums.

See, here's the thing. There's this guilty feeling inside because I'm downloading these songs, but I can tell you right now that there's no way I would buy a Johnny Cash album if I hadn't downloaded these and found out what he's about these days. And it's been the same for just about everything lately. I'm not about to spend money on something like music if I don't know that it's going to give me joy. Music becomes a part of my life. Buying a cd without hearing the kind of music that fills it is to me like an arranged marriage.

Yes, yes, a bit dramatic, I know. But for a time, the music becomes part of my daily rituals, filling my mind like a soundtrack - making things more intense, more impacting, or more sedate.

So them's me thoughts.

I seem to have come out my funk. That was a long one. Oddly, having my only friends in this area move out of my life has kind of kicked me in the butt, causing some movement. I'm feeling more upbeat, and like I can accomplish things.

I'm wondering if part of it was that Jodi was so unhappy in her work. I don't hate my job, but having someone at my side who did, and who expressed that freely, drained me. Not that I didn't want her to share - I'm really glad she did/does. It's part of friendship, and I give as much as I get. But I'm coming to realise more about myself lately, and one thing that I'm learning is that I might as well be play-doh(c). My mood is ridiculously affected by things happening around me. If I go home at the end of the day having accomplished a great deal, I feel energetic and happy. But on the other hand, if I go home having done nothing but add more to my to-do list, then I feel melancholy and downhearted. And negative people pull so much out of me that there can't be much left after a few sessions.

It's all about ME!! Apparently.

Learning who I am when I am alone. Hm. Thought I'd already figured that all out.